White Chicks all sudden?

"You know how it is when you really care about someone.

You call them all day long because you just wanna know how their day is going... and what they're thinking about and if they're thinking about you.

You spend all day trying to find the perfect outfit.

You even change your hairstyle just so he'll take a second look.

But they never notice.

Sometimes l just wish that they could trade places with us...

so that they would know how it feels."

- White Chicks.

Am I really too devoted in love? too much attached just to one person? too loyal? too caring? trying much to impress the loved ones.? Is that a mistakes?

Question in my mind. Answers is not even in my hand.

What is this?

-i always love you-

What to say?

Hii there. Salam.

I feel like blogging at this point. Talking crap or gibberish.

I don't mind.

As long as I'm blogging.

Hey, Guess what? My Assignment is still UNDONE!!!

I don't really have the confidence in it. Well this one module. Seriously, I am not a good in Art, as in Drawing or designers thing. I can do the paperwork and calculation. But hey, there is the challenge. How about doing it then??? But still, I really tried putting all effort, but still not confident with the outcomes. If you look into my design, rubbish! I say so~ Aye!

Well to be honest, Designing building in UK doesn't not really matters if you design it amazingly like you see in Brunei (e.g Kg Rimba). Awesome big house and awesome design you can adapt. Here, old same building.. Seriously all building is the same!!

Ahhh Crap! What am I talking about????

Now, recently I am having things ups and downs.

Oh yeah, did I told you I just got back from AMSTERDAM few days ago. Well, the trip was, Not a girl trip. except. for going there by cruising. THAT IS THE AWESOME THING!! CRUISING~~~ <3 but Amsterdam, nothing is beautiful. Seriously, that is so GUYS TRIP!

Im planning going to ICELAND instead. =) not PARIS.

I feel I hate PARIS nowdays. I am so not interested at all.

One, there is a chance where you being mugged, robbed and pick pockets everywhere.

Two, It is just Eiffel Tower. You can go for Day trip to Paris (if you are in UK). you may think it is the Romantic Place? However, the area was not really romantic. let's go to VENICE instead!

Much awesome. If last year flight wasn't delayed, I'll be in Italy in the first place sudah. pfftt..

Three, the rating given by other Bruneian's was like below 5 out of 10. Unless, you wanna go to Disneyland! Now~~that is the FUN THING!!!

ICELAND. one of my friend told me how awesome Iceland was.. I surprised. and I feel wanted to go there. How about this summer??? hmmmm.. I feel not going back to Brunei I guess.

Do someone really missed me? Does my family remembered me here busy doing my work?? I hope so.

I'm quite surprised actually that I am too much independent I guess. Like, no one notice that I am not around. When I'm sick, no one calls me. When I told them, no words that could make me feel better. for example.. "kalau damam, makan ubat, bawa rehat" that's it. and after I've been better or still continue sick. What I realised, no one asked me... "sehat kau sudah?"

I wonder, where am I? Am I alone? or....I am not that important to ask??

I know deep inside, someone pray for me to get better. But, how to show the love towards me? How can I connect and know that Im being loved?

I feel jealous when my friends get the loving treatment and aura. And mine?? I have to get it from my friends. Sedih ahhh? Nahh,Jangan tah bersimpati to me..

The story goes on and on and on and on.

I'm thinking... What's the point of blogging, when no one does not read mine!

HAHAHAHAHA XD

except, the SPAM on my Chatbox. Aha!

Well, I think, that's better. Cause, I say what I want to Say.

I do What I want to do. =)

This is Mine. My Blog. not Yours!

until Next to Some which is Other Time!

WXYZaiLa

-So pissed until my assignments is teruk-

When things doesn't work well.

NOTHING!

There are lots of things to improve, to learn, and to implement in our daily lives.

Done. Plan. Random.

Salam Brunei Event is over. except for post-Salam Brunei BBQ.

Gonna miss this event like previous year. Different people (or same), different events agenda, different way of organising things. Ups and Downs. Bad or Good Mood. Still, I'm gonna remember Salam Brunei.

Seri Brunei, Salam Brunei. Both I participated in. and great hectic job being done. =) Love it. I just doing those moments. Hahaha XD.

well, another reason is that, this probably my last year in Cardiff. I'm not really sure that I will continuing here in Cardiff. I love this place. When it is sunny, it shines. When it is raining, it glooms. When it is windy, I stayed at home. Hahaha XD

Anyways, Salam Brunei event gives memories to me. =) love. love. love.

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But then, I have only tomorrow. only tomorrow, I mean Sunday. I am free. and I decided to stay at home! And be the ular lampoh beulit. Hahahah XD I like itu...

But starting next week. Oh my~~ I MUST DO MY ASSIGNMENTS!! LIKE SERIOUSLY DOING IT!!!! NO SLACKING. NO GIVING UP. I only have a week to finished up everything. Or else, My Holiday trip is not really fun at all.. AT ALL~~~ pfffttt.

Holiday trip?? AMSTERDAM CALLING~~~~~~~~~ Woot Woot.

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I miss H.i.M.

and I is the Taisliur Kek batik.

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Hey what is this? why my previous post fonts were all grey??? Ini bosan. Dull rasaku blog ku ani.. haiyaaa....

-Love acoustic music, and I my hair look pretty-wow-wow. Hehehehe-

BDSSW ANNUAL CULTURAL GATHERING CELEBRATION

BDSSW PRESENTS.... SALAM BRUNEI.

I don't wanna say much. If there are my loyal readers who are in UK, currently. Come to cardiff and watch our Salam Brunei Performance.

Only 7 pounds. Very cheap. i told ya... VERY CHEAPPP. this even include buffet.

We have a week left...waittt... 5 days? I think. really worth it to come. but try to stay a lil bit longer. so we can hangout and know cardiff more.

I'm busy doing things. props. rehearsal. oh yes! I haven't touch on my Assignmentsss.... I've got time. just the time to sleep. hehehehehhee. =)

If you wanna know what I really do on the day. Just come. and watch me like a ninja.... Haiiiyaa!! Ok. cut that out. I should stop.

CROESO I CAERDYDD!!! means Welcome to Cardiff!!!

xoxo

Gossip Girl. NOT!

P/S: sometimes, when people puts fire on me. I would say.. BURN YOU BACK!!!!! (jgn di pikirkan)

Somehow, Someone, Something.

Somehow,

Miles away,

when you needed someone, you hope someone will be there for you.

but somehow, things doesn't turn out well.

Somehow,

You realised that,

it has been lack of information you know from someone.

Who nowdays less updating their own life.

Always getting to the situation where someone right and you wrong.

and somehow you don't want to argue just to correct it.

You just let it go.

Somehow,

You feel outsiders,

Someone not telling you somethings about their feelings, and you being positive,

that someone will tell you one day

and you just keep hoping it.

Somehow,

There are few questions,

Feeling want to ask something to someone but you just don't want to.

Just because you try to keep somethings safe.

and you still doing it till now.

just not to break somethings up.

-What am I doing here????-

sad.tears.changes.

Salam all.

and again. It has been a while I'm not blogging. =)

and now I feel like one. I feel typing right now.

2011.

loads of things changes. even me myself feel the changes in me.

one of my friend said this to me "how you doing? i can see that you had lost your sane-ness in you. wassup?" when my friend said that to me. I'm starting to realised that it's true. I rarely mingle with whole bunch of people unless invited, but most of the time I don't. I prefer hanging out with someone I feel comfortable. and now it makes that only... like only 2 people I went for mingle. If that person not going, hell yeah I am not going! Totally!!

FYI. i did not mingle with guys. I know that I am much more comfortable with guys. But some things change, so i prefer get along with my old guy friends way back in Brunei. They all are much more understanding and knowing me better.

and some say I am not friendly at all. I try myself to be not friendly to people. Hahaha xD

Now I miss my whole bunch of JRs. Really miss them much. Jokes, tears, gossip-much!

Today. I feel want to cry. I feel sad. I feel down. I feel the cloudy emotion with rain falls without the thunder and the storm.

There's only so many songs
That I can sing to pass the time
And I'm running out of things to do
To get you off my mind
Ooohh,no

All i have is this picture in a frame
That I hold close to see your face every day

With you is where I'd rather be
But we're stuck where we are
And it's so hard,you're so far
This long distance is killing me
I wish that you were here with me
But we're stuck where we are
And it's so hard,you're so far
This long distance is killing me

It's so hard,it's so hard
Where we are,where we are
You're so far,this long distance is killing me
It's so hard,it's so hard
Where we are,where we are
You're so far,this long distance is killing me

Now the minutes feel like hours
And the hours feel like days
While I'm away
You know right now I can't be home
But I'm coming home soon,coming home soon

All i have is this picture in a frame
That I hold close to see your face again

With you is where I'd rather be
But we're stuck where we are
And it's so hard,you're so far
This long distance is killing me
I wish that you were here with me
But we're stuck where we are
And it's so hard,you're so far

Can you hear me crying?
Can you hear me crying?
Can you hear me crying?

With you is where I'd rather be
But we're stuck where we are
And it's so hard,you're so far
This long distance is killing me
I wish that you were here with me
But we're stuck where we are
And it's so hard,you're so far
This long distance is killing me

It's so hard,it's so hard
Where we are,where we are
You're so far,this long distance is killing me
It's so hard,it's so hard
Where we are,where we are
You're so far,this long distance is killing me

There's only so many songs
That I can sing to pass the tïme..

-sigh. I miss you. -

Bored. Type. List.

Salam all. =)

I am not sure what am I up to today, but certainly, I feel I need to type something to let out my expression.

I am not sure or aware that there is still someone reading this blog. That, I cannot assure. Well, if there is a loyal reader, they just gonna read. aren't they?

Well, I have not blogging since I am not sure when. But my last post was recently about a song from Taylor Swift. Not a fan, but like the lyrics. It just somehow truth and not in the lyrics, love life truth? Yadaa Yadaa Yadaa...

Today is 12:04am Sunday 12/12/2010. I am in my room, transferring all the movies in my laptop hard disk to my external hard disk. Counting hours for me dearest sister to arrived safely in London and Cardiff. Making a list of latest movies I am gonna watch soon *i have this Unlimited Card, so yeah, It makes me a 'Kaki Wayang' , say NO to Pirated movies.*

Speaking of latest movies.

I watched The Chronicles of Narnia:The Voyage of the Dawn Treader and The Tourist.

Both, i recommended.

but a must see movie is The Tourist.

Maybe because the awesome actor and actress are Johnny Deep and Angelina Jolie! My Favourites Movie Star!!!!

Oh well, here the sneak peek. the movies is a bit twisted, romantic, spontaneous, and awesome movies being set up!

not really a sneak peek right? watch it for yourself. =)

haha. guess what. my birthday is near. and now I am listing the list I wish for my birthday.

I am not really picky. but I do hope I get what I really want. If someone really knows me. They will get something I really like. If it is match, definitely that person will get in return for their birthday by me. =)

Ok, stop typing. and go on listing! Hahaha Xp

-i always count the days. but not my birthday-

BACK TO DECEMBER - Taylor Swift

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life, tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier then ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why

'Cause the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right
I go back to December all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't call
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side and,
Realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night,
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

But this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

All the time

-i really do miss you.-

CARDIFF 2010/2011

Salam.

Hey! Im back to cardiff!!!!! =)

well.. next week Im gonna be a month here.

Yes I know, No update since I'm here.

oh well.. doesn't matter if u have my Facebook account!!!! =)

I don't know what to say now. except...I'm bored.

but the thing is...

I MISS MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS in Brunei.

totally different here in UK.

Some people are expecting.. it will be a GREAT FUN studying in other country.. FREEDOM!!

But guess what?

FOR ME it is NOT FUN AT ALL. You have to worried about yourself, your assignments, your budget, your health, your activity, your time.. and your surrounding... *cause people tend to be busybody about yourself even you trying to avoid it.*

For the First here arrived here.. i was so excited. i feel like on vacation. like off to Thailand, Singapore, KL... but after nearly a Year here... Loads of things happen around... Loads.... I meant it!

When you had felt those nearly a year moments in UK, the second time going back here again it was damn... i mean DAMN HARD! You wish how you can freeze the time you are in Brunei. You wish that you had a clone of you to takeover your study in UK. You wanna know why you had that feel? Because you were surrounded by the people who loves you and understand you more and doesn't even bother the little things you do.. cause they know you well... And you don't have to feel stiff and awkward around them. Then.. u get you GREAT FUN!!!! Simple as that.

Ok.. that is just my opinion. well.. my thoughts actually!!! HAHAHAH Xp I love Brunei than I love here. Hahahahah XD

My aim this year... is DON'T BOTHER ABOUT ANYONE.

NOTHING TO BUSY ABOUT.

NO GOSSIP ABOUT THEM! *heyy!! I know girl tend to be gossiping!!!*

LESS SARCASM!!!

Talking about Gossip. When I realized nowadays, hahaha XD GOSSIP WITH SOMEONE YOU TRUST TO. not GOSSIP WITH EVERYONE!!! I mean SERIOUSLY!!! Oh well.. gossip is ain't good.

Nearly a Year here, I nearly know their habit, and I'm avoiding it.

Ok Ok...Now. I'm trying to less my sarcasm here... I KNOW RIGHT!!!!!!

I should stop it! It is really bad.

"She is not a bitch.. she is a leech..." -Some guy friend told me this!

By ALL!!! =)